Thursday, June 04, 2009

I didn't even say you disgust me.
So if I actually gathered all the hurtful things you said to me and had taken them to heart
shouldn't I be dead and buried underground a long time ago?
Don't use my words against me because I've never done that to you.

Others have said piercing stuff to me(even in front of you) all because of you and I swallowed them all. I always wish you'd at least say something but no, you always pretend that you didn't hear anything/nothing happened. You make me feel like I'm so worthless, like I deserved all of that bullshit.
So if I were to add all those up as well, I'd have become a fossil by now.

Get your facts right before publicising anything on your blog
& if you really meant good for me you wouldn't have yelled at me and dared me to do stupid things just now.

Why are you the one being more emotional than me when I'm the one at hurt all the time? Who is going to understand me? You? No, I have to understand your plight instead.

It hurts, both physically and emotionally.
It has finally taken a toll on me.
It didn't feel that bad until I was thinking of all that happened these 2 years.
Even if I cried, you wouldn't care.
Even if I said I was sad and hurt, you wouldn't care.

All you wanted was for me to listen and understand you, and to give in.
All you ever did was to say, "Ok it's my fault, ok?" and we'll just pretend nothing happened the next day.

Promises made and never held true.
Lies told and never taken back.

Sorry, if it makes you feel better.
I know it must've been tough for you too.